September 2011
1 post
“Man is therefore, (from the angle of force expression), a mass of conflicting...”
– Ponder on This: A Compilation
The violin evokes a sensual experience of being rapt with colorful emotional energy. There’s an abstract relation between the transcendent symphony and my own singing heart. I release in each droned note, allowing myself to be carried into the eidetic cosmos around me, synthesizing numen within me. Such elegance in sound creates the inebriating effect of being hugged by Mother Nature.
August 2011
2 posts
July 2011
1 post
Too soon my illusion was shattered, sending me plummeting from out of the clouds… The “perspicuous reflection of my inner desires” revealed to be a frivolous episode of reality. It’s hard to fathom that the honey-haired illumination whose essence revived me during sickness provided the hand I held in a state of nirvana; as he is now the vague silhouette in a series of jaded memories.
June 2011
1 post
“Only if one loves this Earth with unbending passion, can one release one’s...”
– Don Juan Matus
May 2011
3 posts
“Heaven is here — you just have to know how to live it. And hell too is here, and...”
– Osho
“One’s life has value so long as one attributes value to the life of...”
– Simone de Beauvoir
Mantra from the Dalai Lama
(Just a short Buddhist outlook on life.)
1. Take into account that great love and great achievements involve great risk.
2. When you lose, don’t lose the lesson.
3. Follow the three R’s: Respect for self Respect for others and Responsibility for all your actions.
4. Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful stroke of luck.
5. Learn the...
April 2011
3 posts
“People seem not to see that their opinion of the world is also a confession of...”
– Ralph Waldo Emerson
I can’t discern anything past the inebriating effect of his touch or the vigorous beating of my heart at the thought. I can’t shake this qualm of yearning and patience can’t compete. The back-burner has lost it’s fervor and self-medicating has become too expensive. Willpower is a limited resource, but I’m too resilient to cease persistence and too stubborn to deem...
Today's Paradox
Mindfulness - (being aware of the present moment without thinking or judging) - almost seems limiting to me, though theoretically it’s the antithesis. How funny is it that manifesting zen requires depletion of innate personal-perception and emotional biases. In order to see things for what they really are you must become what you are not.
March 2011
5 posts
Journaling is my means to solidify my thoughts. Everything I publicly discern is written in a format of my understanding. If you find my thoughts to be unaccommodating or my writing to be dull and pretentious, unfollow me. I say this because hearing me talk about the ocean gets old, I know. But I wont return to the indited reflection of a nihilistic misanthropist.
Riddle of Epicurus
If God is willing to prevent evil, but is not able to Then He is not omnipotent. If He is able, but not willing Then He is malevolent. If He is both able and willing Then whence cometh evil? If He is neither able nor willing Then why call Him God?
88 Important Truths I’ve Learned About Life
1. You can’t change other people, and it’s rude to try.
2. It is a hundred times more difficult to burn calories than to refrain from consuming them in the first place.
3. If you’re talking to someone you don’t know well, you may be talking to someone who knows way more about whatever you’re talking about than you do.
4. The cheapest and most expensive models are usually both bad deals.
5....
The Big View →
February 2011
8 posts
I’ll admit that the initial feeling is pretty shocking. Seconds after the first (and only) hit I noticed that my surroundings became emphatically overwhelming, everything in sight was moving - and it didn’t help that I was choking. As soon as I closed my eyelids I had the sensation of being shot backwards, kinda like my mind was riding the star roller-coaster in my own wonderland....
Soothe My Soul, Mend My Mind: →
“If you want to love, take the time to listen to your heart. In most ancient and wise cultures it is a regular practice for people to talk to their heart. There are rituals, stories, and meditative skills in every spiritual tradition that awaken the voice of the heart. To live wisely, this practice is essential, because our heart is the source of our connection to and intimacy with all of life....
I often find myself flooded with a sudden wave of raw emotion. Tears are inevitably evoked due to acknowledgement that I am able to feel such intensity, let alone, feel at all. My best description for this sensual revelation is an “emotional epiphany”. It’s an unobtrusive type of energy that replenishes my humbleness towards life. Not only do I welcome it, but I search for it,...
To love justice, to long for the right, to love mercy, to pity the suffering, to assist the weak, to forget wrongs and remember benefits, to love the truth, to be sincere, to utter honest words, to love liberty, to wage relentless war against slavery in all its forms, to love family and friend, to make a happy home, to love the beautiful in art, in nature, to cultivate the mind, to be...
I’m both foolish and wise, but that’s a common oxymoron, isn’t it? Frankly I’m more concerned as to why. Youth is irrelevant. Perhaps it’s the brain: cunning in nature and unable to logic when most needed; or maybe emotions, equally misleading. Whatever it be, I’m in no mood to become philosophical… I just felt the need to critique.
Goodbye, So long...
There comes a day when publicly pouring thine heart out becomes exhausting. So I’ll be giving Tumblr a break. Well that didn’t last very long.
DRUGS (explained affects) →
January 2011
12 posts
Why Can't I Own a Canadian?
Dr. Laura Schlessinger is a radio personality who dispenses advice to people who call in to her radio show. Recently, she said that, as an observant Orthodox Jew, homosexuality is an abomination according to Leviticus 18:22 and cannot be condoned under any circumstance. The following is an open letter to Dr. Laura penned by a east coast resident, which was posted on the Internet. It’s funny,...
axiomatic wisdom
Quoting Malcolm X and supporting Maslow’s theory*, I told my therapist that I couldn’t find peace because I didn’t have freedom. She proceeded to present me with a book called Man’s Search for Meaning, countering that freedom is something to be achieved in the mind.
In the darkest of darkness came-forth the beginning of all light; Little did I know that this piece of literature...
Hakuna matata
I woke up with tears of confusion and insecurity. Unable to find my dignity where I left it. When suddenly I realized that opportunity was staring me in the face with an extended hand. This revelation brought on heavier tears. Before me is the opportunity to release the only strenuous/ torturous relationships in my life. I have that choice now to walk away from what pains me; to be able to sit in...
What Is Poetry Made Of? (TBT Post)
whisperedverse:
Sugar and spice and everything nice, and lust, and pain, and bitter refrains, and love unrequited, or returned, then lost, or felt too deeply no matter the cost, and beauty so pure as to make us weep, and the type of darkness that won’t foster sleep, and hope and despair, and obsessive need, and everything else our pens might bleed. That’s what poetry’s made of.
Satori Sunday
I’m working less with the way of Tao and as a result I’ve stressed myself out for no reason; cause/effect. I’ve forgotten to do without doing because I’ve become so consumed in demanding what doesn’t and probably shouldn’t belong to me.
I think logically and give pragmatic advice but unfortunately my emotions are the most dominant guidance. Maybe the lesson is...
Why do I continue to search for the smell of shit?
“If you realized how powerful your thoughts are, you would never think a negative...”
– Peace Pilgrim
A man who smelled like Earth told me that “lebenreise” is a German word that means life journey. I bet his friendship will be worth the pursuit.
When I go for a drive I like to pull off to the...
“I feel an indescribable ecstasy and delirium in melting, as it were, into the system of being, in identifying myself with the whole of nature.”
J. J. Rousseau
I’m no longer interested in demanding perspicacity from life. Life is inscrutable… and I’m at peace with that knowledge. Wisdom is freedom and emotions are fickle, but never forget that emotions have created the best art.
The definition of love is: ’beautiful, biased, spoon-fed irrationality and idealization caused by a touch of vigor and zest’; it also translates to...
2011
I gave away the last of my coins to a Spanger. It was probably about two dollars, perhaps less. He was missing many teeth and I’m not sure if he was homeless or on drugs, nor does that concern me or alter my final decision. He was polite, which I adore in strangers; and as a matter ‘o fact, I do have change to spare. It’s ten hours short of a new begining, I’m young and in...
"New Years Fucking Eve-Eve"
If you kiss me mister you must think im pretty If you think so mister you must want to fuck me If you fuck me mister it must mean you love me If you love me mister you would never leave me
While singing along I could feel the mix of mischief and irony sliding out of my vocal cords and off of my tongue.
For those of you who don’t know, the title of my blog is named after...
December 2010
10 posts
My First Name is Distance: Part I
“There is not a single thing more beautiful than this universe,” he murmured. The warmth of his breath caught my nipple, sending chills down my spine. His head was on my chest tracking the subtle heart beats; and his hand was griping my own, ensuring that this was real. Our bodies lay still, naked and innocuous. “…But somehow I disbelieve,” he continued. “Though I can imagine the synergy of the...
“I do not think badly of others when they treat me unkindly. Rather, I feel...”
– O sensei Ueshiba (via lwrnsauce)
Infatuation never felt so good
Not often do I find someone who can impress me immediately. If I’m desperate enough I’ll create the desired image of whomever I’m currently “seeing”. If I’m patient enough I’ll find their true self (in which case I’m very likely to stumble upon incorrigible flaws). I realize that something can be learned from just about anyone, and as a result I...
Now in the days of my decreased appetite, I feel that listening to music doesn’t ensure enough relief - I crave to create it. I want to scream and moan into a microphone. I want slap my hands on an instrument. I want distorted sound and thunderous applause encouraging my insanity. I want an audience who will synchronize their passion and pain with my own. I’m uncomfortable and I want...
I ‘m currently feeling a mix of: rage, tristfulness, indifference, and anxiety. (It’s not as fun as it sounds…)
“Ever has it been that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation.”
– Khalil Gibran (via kari-shma)
Every line is about who I don't want to write...
I knew that I’d get like this again, That’s why I try to keep at bay. Be 100% when I’m with you and then, The perfect heart’s length away.
My biggest desire just may be to arrogate the exception to the rule. I’d let it get the best of me one thousand times, because the truth is: I like being in over my head. I know that you’re no good, but I’m going...
November 2010
7 posts
Expectation leads to disappointment
Maya Angelo said, “if someone shows themselves to you - believe it”. The quote is self-explanatory but I’ll expound further:
So many times I’ve been fooled by people who aren’t who they claim to be. When I find out who they really are - (or more fairly, who they’re capable of being) - I become shocked and analytical....
